Yeah. . . So. . . I’m never conditioned enough to sit down and write when I’m composing posts in my head!
What I wanted to talk to you about today is yet another, likely, empty promise that I’ll be back up and running soon!
Recently I’ve been working way too hard for other people and not placing enough focus on my own personal goals. This is quite frustrating on many levels. As it turns out one of the places I worked at has closed it’s doors, and that was official on March 31st.
It’s such a blessing in disguise, because even though money will be tight, I now have quite a lot more “free” time to start working the things I want to do!
I want to:
-Start a Youtube Channel (But I am so scarrrred)
-Start a Podcast
-Start playing more music
-Write more here!
-Work diligently on the start-up my sister and I have been building.
-Homestead. (which, if I would have just gotten out my damned camera the past few months, I would have lots of content for you on that front.)
That’s a lot of ambition! Somehow I know there is a way to make it work.
In the past, a lot of what has held me back is the jealousy (is that the right term?) factor. So like – I used to be really good at being excited if someone else I knew was trying to head down a similar path to what I want, but I’ve let a few things negatively influence me the last couple of years (in that mindset) without even realizing it until it was too late. So many of the people I surround myself with don’t allow for the sharing of experiences. If someone is into history that is *THEIR* thing, or if someone likes to grow tomatoes that is *THEIR* thing. That entire mentality caused me to hit a brick wall in creativity and ambition.
And you know what? I call bullshit on that one!
I was letting that hold me back and now I’m not going to. We can learn and grow together or not talk about it at all, but I’m going to do what I want. Dammit.
RABBLE RABBLE RABBLE
Anyway! I’m glad to be back. I’m glad to be freed up with my schedule. I’m excited to push forward and grow and I hope you all will be excited to join me!