The Missing Passenger Seat

Looking for Katie Ferguson in the Wilds of Wyoming

How She Left
Katie Ferguson was thirty three. She was a daughter, a mother of two, and someone trying to carve out safety. Her stepmom Angela helped her with gas and hotel money so she could leave Alabama and return home to Cody. Family matters. A fresh start. A path forward.

On October 5, 2023, Katie climbed into her black 1999 Dodge Durango. Her two young daughters were in the back seat. Her boyfriend, Adam Aviles Jr., was driving. They were heading northwest to Wyoming.

That evening, in Trumann, Arkansas, a police officer checked on a vehicle parked behind a business. It was Katieโ€™s Durango. The engine was running. The girls were asleep. Katie was awake and calm in the front passenger seat. Adam was standing outside. The officer noted no damage, no danger, and no reason to intervene.

That moment, captured on body cam, is the last confirmed sighting of Katie Ferguson.

How She Disappeared
On October 9, Adam was pulled over in Texas. He was alone.

The Durango now had a bullet hole in the front passenger door. It had been patched with tape. Katie was not in the vehicle. The girls were still with him.

Adam claimed Katie had gotten out of the car in New Mexico and walked away. Left her daughters. Left the trip. Left no message behind.

Her family never believed that version. And neither did investigators.

What Was Found
Nearly a month later, on November 4, Katieโ€™s Durango was found abandoned in Oregon Basin, just south of Cody.

Inside the vehicle was blood. Fired .45 caliber rounds. The entire front passenger seat had been removed. Interior trim pieces had been torn out and stuffed into trash bags. Katieโ€™s phone was wrapped in a blanket. Cadaver dogs alerted on the ground near the passenger side and the tire tracks. The smell inside was strong enough that investigators suspected an attempt to clean or cover it.

A man matching Adamโ€™s description had been seen in the area carrying a red gas can.

The vehicle was left less than ten miles from where Katie lived.

The Pink Tote
During Adamโ€™s federal trial, agents revealed another detail. A pink plastic tote wrapped in white duct tape had been found at his fatherโ€™s house in Cody. An FBI agent testified that it smelled like putrefied blood. Witnesses said Adam had thrown it away behind a Walgreens and then gone back to retrieve it. He reportedly said the tote contained DNA.

It has never been found.

Neither has Katie.

The Charge That Stuck
Adam was a convicted felon. He was not legally allowed to possess firearms or ammunition. Investigators recovered .45 caliber rounds that matched the ammunition used in the vehicle.

He was charged federally for being a felon in possession of ammunition.

At his sentencing in September 2024, the judge stated it was more likely than not that Adam killed Katie. He was sentenced to eighty seven months in federal prison.

No murder charge has ever been filed.

What Weโ€™re Still Looking For
Two pieces of evidence have never been recovered. One is the pink plastic tote. The other is the front passenger seat from the Durango. Investigators believe both were discarded in or near Park County. Possibly near Oregon Basin. Possibly farther out. They may have been burned. They may still be out there.

If Youโ€™re in the Backcountry
If you hunt, hike, ride trails, or explore the wild spaces around Cody, please look again.

A faded tote. A seat frame tucked in brush. Something that seems out of place.

If you find anything that fits, do not touch it. Do not move it. Take a photo. Drop a pin. Call the Park County Sheriffโ€™s Office at 307 527 8700.

Even if youโ€™re not sure. Even if it seems like nothing.

Because it might be the one thing that finally brings Katie home.

A Family Still Waiting
Katieโ€™s daughters were two and four when she disappeared. They are now six and three. They live with Adamโ€™s mother. They ask about their mom. They walk past her room. They are growing up in the space she left behind.

Her mother Mona says she prays for answers every day. Her biggest fear is never being able to explain the truth to her granddaughters. She just wants to bring her daughter home.

At Adamโ€™s sentencing, Katieโ€™s friends wore shirts with her face printed across the front. They wanted him to see her. Every time he looked up.

Katie has not been forgotten.

This Case Is Not Cold
There is no mystery in this case. There is testimony. There is blood. There are bullets. There is a missing seat and a tote that was never meant to be found.

Katie deserves to come home.

If you live in Wyoming, you know how easily things blend into the landscape. You know how many old logging roads lead to nowhere. You know how a piece of plastic can get buried in snow and sun and sagebrush.

So if you are out there, take one more look. The next thing you notice might be the reason someone finally gets to rest.

Stay curious. Keep looking.

xoxo
-S

As an amateur true crime writer, I strive to provide accurate and well-researched information. However, please be aware that I am not a professional investigator or journalist, and my work is based on available sources and my understanding of the case. There may be inaccuracies or incomplete details in my posts. I encourage readers to seek out additional sources and verify information from official and professional channels. Thank you for your understanding and support.

When Trying to be Healthy Feels Like a Full-Time Job

The Pressure to Always Be On

Thereโ€™s this pressure, spoken or not, to always be doing the most when it comes to your health. Show up to the gym, eat clean, get your steps in, drink the water, take the supplements, regulate your blood sugar, balance your hormones, sleep well, repeat. And when youโ€™re doing it all for weeks or months, it starts to feel like you should be used to it by now. That it should come naturally. That if youโ€™re tired, it must be something youโ€™re doing wrong.

But hereโ€™s the truth: sometimes, trying to do everything right is just plain exhausting.

Especially when your body is already working against you.

When the Baseline Is Already Hard

Living with PCOS means that no matter how well I eat or how consistently I move, my body still throws curveballs. Chronic fatigue makes even simple tasks feel like theyโ€™re being done underwater some days. And I know Iโ€™m not the only one. So many people are dealing with invisible conditions. Autoimmune disorders. Mental health struggles. Endocrine issues. Chronic pain. Itโ€™s not just about doing the work. Itโ€™s about doing the work while your body resists every step.

Youโ€™re not lazy. Youโ€™re not broken. Youโ€™re not doing it wrong. Youโ€™re just carrying more than most people see.

The Perfection Trap

Thereโ€™s a lie that creeps in when youโ€™re trying to get healthy, that if you just stay consistent, youโ€™ll feel better and better and better. And maybe thatโ€™s true for some people. But for those of us with long-term health struggles, itโ€™s rarely that linear.

Sometimes, the most consistent thing you can do is rest.

And I donโ€™t mean that in a cute, wellness-influencer kind of way. I mean that when your body is shot and your brain is foggy and everything hurts, itโ€™s okay to take the day off. Itโ€™s okay to nap instead of lift. Itโ€™s okay to eat the thing. Itโ€™s okay to just exist.

You are not required to earn your rest.

Grace Over Guilt

One of the hardest parts of living with chronic health issues is the guilt that sneaks in. You know what to do. Youโ€™ve done it before. And yet today, you canโ€™t. So you beat yourself up. You feel like a failure.

Stop.

Give yourself some grace. Real, honest grace. Not the kind where you โ€œrestโ€ and then punish yourself with two extra workouts later. Not the kind where you eat a snack and then spend hours trying to undo it.

The kind of grace that says, โ€œI trust myself enough to know that taking care of me looks different every day.โ€

The Watchful Eyes (and the Hypocrisy)

Thereโ€™s another layer to all this that no one really prepares you for. The spectators. Once people know youโ€™re working on your health, itโ€™s like theyโ€™re waiting for you to slip up. You mention youโ€™re doing keto, and suddenly everyoneโ€™s a nutritionist. You eat one non-keto thing and itโ€™s, โ€œI thought you werenโ€™t eating that anymore?โ€

Meanwhile, these same people are drinking soda for breakfast and havenโ€™t had a vegetable in three days. But sure, letโ€™s judge the girl with PCOS for eating a granola bar.

Hereโ€™s what Iโ€™ve learned. Most of the people who point fingers arenโ€™t actually doing the work themselves. They just feel more comfortable when youโ€™re struggling because it lets them off the hook.

Let them talk. Let them side-eye. Let them whisper. You donโ€™t owe anyone perfection.

Youโ€™re allowed to change your mind, shift your plan, take breaks, and figure it out as you go. You are allowed to do what works for you. Because in the end, their opinions wonโ€™t get you through the hard days. You will.

Itโ€™s Not a Linear Path

Some days will be full of momentum and motivation. Youโ€™ll hit your macros, lift heavy, and feel like youโ€™re making progress. And then there will be days where just getting out of bed takes everything youโ€™ve got. Thatโ€™s not failure. Thatโ€™s life with a body that doesnโ€™t always cooperate.

Health isnโ€™t a straight line. Itโ€™s not a before and after photo. Itโ€™s a thousand tiny choices made over time, layered with rest, setbacks, and reminders that your worth has never been tied to your productivity.

So if today is one of the hard ones, youโ€™re allowed to rest. Youโ€™re allowed to feel tired. Youโ€™re allowed to not be okay.

And youโ€™re still on the path.

xoxo
-S

The Aftermath of the Heel Hustle

My Toenails Have Entered Their Villain Era

Remember when I talked about surviving Firehouse Fatales in high heels? Yeah. Well. Turns out the story didnโ€™t end when I took my shoes off.

I went to take off my toenail polish so I could redo it (because cute feet are forever, bruises be damned), and surprise: both of my big toenails were bruised. On one of them, the top layer of the nail peeled off completely with the polish.

Iโ€™ve lost these toenails before, so I know what that feels like. This isnโ€™t that. Not yet, anyway. This is more like a horror short film called “Beauty Queen Feet: The Sequel You Didnโ€™t Ask For.”

What actually happened?

It was the perfect storm.

High heels and a long day on my feet meant nonstop pressure. My feet slid forward in my shoes all day, pressing my big toes into the front of the toe box. That constant impact bruised the nail beds underneath.

Add to that the fact that I skate regularly. Between derby drills, edge work, and toe-stop starts, my feet take a beating even without the heels. Roller derby puts a ton of stress on the forefoot, and when you combine that with already-compromised nails, they donโ€™t exactly stand a chance.

And Iโ€™ll be honest. I almost never let my toenails breathe. I always have polish on. So they were already dry, probably brittle, and definitely not ready for a 100-degree concrete catwalk moment.

The trauma pushed them over the edge, and when I went to remove the polish, the top layer of the nail peeled right off like it had been waiting for its final act.

Why this happens

This kind of injury is called a subungual hematoma, which is a bruise under the nail caused by pressure or repeated impact. When you cram your toes into tight shoes or take hard hits at the front of your foot (hello, skating and high heels), tiny blood vessels under the nail can rupture, causing a deep bruise. If the nail is already weakened from polish, trauma, or dehydration, itโ€™s even more likely to lift, peel, or flake.

What I’m doing now

  • No polish for a bit. Iโ€™m giving my toes a chance to recover before I dress them back up.
  • Iโ€™m using a clear keratin nail repair treatment to reinforce the nail plate and protect new growth.
  • Epsom salt soaks and nail oil are officially part of my daily routine.
  • Iโ€™ve got open-toed shoes on deck for the foreseeable future and zero shame about it.

What might help next time

  • Rotate out of polish once in a while to let your nails breathe.
  • Trim your toenails short and smooth before any long day in heels or on skates.
  • Use anti-friction balm or even a small strip of moleskin on your big toes to reduce rubbing.
  • Look for heel grips or gel inserts that keep your foot from sliding forward in your shoes.
  • And if youโ€™re skating on top of everything else, ice and magnesium are your friends.

Lessons from the battlefield

If youโ€™re going full glam in vintage heels all day and also asking your feet to skate, sprint, squat, and recover, give them some credit. And give them a break. Especially if you, like me, have a long history of sacrificing your nail beds in the name of pinup glory.

Pain is temporary. Pretty feet are a full-time job.

xoxo
-S

The Fall of the House of Horatio

I didnโ€™t set out to live with spiders.
It just sort ofโ€ฆ happened.

It started with one: a large, quiet wolf spider who took up residence in the back corner of my bathtub. She didnโ€™t build a web. She didnโ€™t scurry at my presence. She just stayed, watching from the metal edge like she had nowhere else to be and didnโ€™t see any reason to leave.

At first, I startled. Thatโ€™s normal. Weโ€™re not meant to casually coexist with eight-legged creatures in our places of ritual and cleanliness. But the more I looked at her, the less threatening she seemed. There was no aggression. No mess. Just presence. So I left her alone. I named her Horatio.

Before long, we had a routine. Sheโ€™d be in the tub when I came in. Iโ€™d scoop her gently onto a Q-tip and tuck her out of the waterโ€™s path before I turned the faucet on. I canโ€™t explain why I felt responsible for her, but I did. Maybe it was the way she held still, as if she trusted me. Or maybe it was just easier than squishing something that didnโ€™t mean any harm.

One day, I tried to be extra kind. She was sitting low in the tub and I worried the water might overwhelm her, so I nudged her up with the Q-tip and tucked her behind the shower curtain, safe and dry.

When I finished my shower, she was gone.

Not โ€œmoved to a new cornerโ€ gone. Not โ€œscuttled up the tileโ€ gone.
Justโ€ฆ gone.

I stood there dripping, staring into the folds of the curtain, convinced Iโ€™d made a fatal mistake. That Iโ€™d drowned a spider I hadnโ€™t realized Iโ€™d come to care about. For two days, I peeked around corners. Nothing.

And then she was back.

Just sitting calmly in her usual spot, like sheโ€™d never left. I laughed when I saw her. I couldnโ€™t help it. She wasnโ€™t just a spider anymore. She was a survivor. And this old, drafty house with its creaky walls and creepy-crawly critter snack bar was hers now too.

But she wasnโ€™t alone for long.

That night, a second spider descended from the ceiling on a silk line, graceful, confident, and clearly not expecting company. She came down halfway, paused, and spotted Horatio already in the tub.

The standoff lasted maybe five seconds. Then the newcomer panicked, turned tail, and climbed back up like a cartoon burglar caught mid-break-in.

I named her Horbtio. My brother suggested it, and I couldnโ€™t stop laughing. If Horatio was the quiet matriarch, Horbtio was the anxious cousin who showed up uninvited, realized sheโ€™d walked into family drama, and disappeared into the curtain rod.

And for a while, that was it.
Horatio below. Horbtio above. A strange, silent truce.

I kept my distance. I gave them space. I even wrote about them, this weird little bathtub saga unfolding just beyond the reach of the faucet.

But then, everything changed.

This morning, I stepped into the bathroom and stopped cold.
There was a third.

This one was different. Smaller. Lankier. And clearly male. I could tell from the shape of his pedipalps, those front-facing appendages just under the eyes. They were swollen, bobbing slightly as he moved.

Iโ€™d never had a problem with Horatio. I even grew fond of Horbtio. But this new arrival? He came with an energy shift. A potential for eggs. A hint of infestation. And with him, the quiet dignity of House Horatio shattered.

I named him Horctio, because by this point, naming them felt like a strange kind of honor.
But I knew he couldnโ€™t stay.
None of them could.

Itโ€™s one thing to host a spider.
Itโ€™s another thing to host three.

So today, I served the eviction notice.

I told them they had until I got off work to pack up and vacate the porcelain premises. I said it with kindness, but I meant it. Because while I may be generous, Iโ€™m not trying to run a spider commune. I believe in boundaries. Even when they have eight legs and a surprisingly long tenancy.

By the time you read this, they may be gone. Or I may have had to rehome them gently by cup and envelope to the backyard shadows where they belong.

And even though I know this is the right call,
Iโ€™ll miss them.
A little.

Because I never thought a trio of leggy freeloaders would teach me something about patience, coexistence, and the strange tenderness that can bloom between humans and the small wild things that live in their corners.

But here we are.
Goodbye, House Horatio. You were weird. You were quiet.
And you were strangely hard to let go.

xoxo
-S

The Bubble Bath Reset Button

Why My Go-To Comfort Ritual Actually Works on a Biological Level

When Iโ€™m worn down, I donโ€™t reach for a blanket or a comfort show. I take a bath. A real one with bubbles, hot water, and quiet.

It isnโ€™t a trendy self-care idea. Itโ€™s what helps me reset when everything feels like too much. The reason it works isnโ€™t just personal preference. Thereโ€™s real science behind it.

It’s More Than Just Warm Water

It might seem basic. Youโ€™re overwhelmed, so you step into something warm. But your body and brain are reacting in very specific ways that support recovery.

1. Heat Lowers Cortisol

Warm water lowers cortisol, the hormone that keeps you in fight-or-flight mode. As your skin heats up, blood vessels expand and circulation improves. This shift tells your nervous system itโ€™s time to rest. Your heart rate slows, breathing deepens, and your body begins to feel safe again.

2. The Water Feels Familiar to the Body

The warmth, the quiet, and the pressure from the water can create a sense of physical safety. Researchers believe partial submersion may mimic the environment of the womb. It activates a deep calm that feels instinctive, even if you canโ€™t explain why in the moment.

3. Gentle Pressure Helps You Regulate

Water creates even, steady pressure on the skin. This activates deep pressure receptors that help regulate the nervous system. Itโ€™s the same effect weighted blankets have. The body interprets it as steady contact and becomes more grounded.

4. Warmth Eases Pain and Releases Endorphins

The heat from the bath helps the body release small amounts of endorphins. These chemicals act as natural pain relievers. At the same time, the muscles begin to relax and stiffness fades. As the body loosens up, the mind tends to follow.

5. Routine Creates Structure

When everything feels chaotic, doing something familiar can be stabilizing. A bath routine has predictable steps that help build a sense of control. Each one creates a physical cue that the hard part of the day is over.


My Go-To Bath Setup

Hereโ€™s what my bath looks like from start to finish. Every part serves a purpose and supports some part of the calming process.

๐Ÿ”ด Red Light Comes On First
Before turning on the water, I switch on the red overhead light. Red light helps support circadian rhythms and recovery without disrupting the brainโ€™s natural sleep signals. The glow makes the space feel quiet and calm.

๐ŸŽต Music That Helps Me Slow Down
I use a YouTube playlist with instrumental music that has no lyrics and a slow tempo. This kind of sound encourages the brain to move into an alpha wave state, which helps you shift out of high-alert thinking and into something more relaxed.

๐Ÿงด Bubble Bath and Epsom Salt Together
I choose a bubble bath based on what I need. Creamy if I feel fragile, herbal if I feel heavy. I always add Epsom salt because magnesium absorbs through the skin. It supports muscle recovery, nervous system regulation, and better sleep.

๐Ÿ•ฏ๏ธ Candles and Incense Create a Full Environment
I light a few candles to shift the tone of the room. The flicker is gentle and helps lower blood pressure. Incense helps reinforce the transition. Earthy or resin-based scents are grounding and signal that the space is for rest.

๐ŸŒซ๏ธ Extra Heat When I Need It
When I need more relief, I close the door and run the shower hot for a few minutes before filling the tub. The steam warms the room and helps muscles start to soften before I even get in. Breathing in warm, damp air can also help calm the respiratory system.

๐Ÿง–โ€โ™€๏ธ Skincare Before the Bath
I go through my skincare steps slowly. Cleanser, toner, moisturizer. I donโ€™t rush. This simple routine helps bring me back into my body and acts as a transition from stress to care.

Then I get in the bath and stop doing anything else.


Why I Keep Choosing It

Iโ€™ve cried in the bath. Zoned out in the bath. Talked myself through hard moments in the bath. Sometimes I go in feeling like I canโ€™t handle another thing and come out able to breathe again.

This process isnโ€™t dramatic. Itโ€™s basic. It works.

When everything feels loud, sharp, or disorganized, quiet warmth helps me feel human again. The comfort is real, but itโ€™s also biological. The body responds to water in ways that restore balance.

Sometimes taking a bath is the most effective thing I can do to keep going.
And I think thatโ€™s true for a lot of people.

xoxo
-S

Do It Anyway

Why Waiting to Feel “Better” Might Be Holding You Back

Thereโ€™s a moment that sneaks up on us. It might be when you’re brushing your teeth, driving to work, or standing in line at the grocery store. You catch yourself thinking, โ€œIโ€™ll do it when I feel better.โ€ When Iโ€™m more stable. When the anxiety settles. When I finally stop feeling this heavy sadness.

But what if that moment never comes?

Hereโ€™s the hard truth: waiting to feel ready might mean waiting forever. Life doesnโ€™t always give us a neat little window where everything aligns and we suddenly feel brave, joyful, or put together enough to start living. Healing doesnโ€™t always show up before the experience. Sometimes, the experience is what heals you.

So go live.

Not a curated, perfect version of life. Your real, messy, miraculous life. Do it sad. Do it anxious. Do it uncertain. Let the shaky steps count just as much as the sure ones.

You donโ€™t need to have it all figured out to move forward. You donโ€™t have to be healed to be worthy of joy, love, connection, or progress. If you wait for all the pain to go away before you begin, you might miss the part where the beginning is what softens the pain.

Weโ€™re taught that clarity, happiness, and motivation should come before action. That we need to fix ourselves first, and then weโ€™ll be ready. But what if the act of showing up exactly as we are is what helps us feel whole again?

Start living now. Not because everything feels easy, but because your life is happening right now. Donโ€™t sit on the sidelines waiting for a cleaner chapter. Write your story in the middle of the mess. Use the colors you have, even if they donโ€™t match.

You donโ€™t have to be fearless to be brave.

Sometimes the unknown is where you discover your strength. Sometimes walking into the moment is what brings the healing youโ€™ve been waiting for.

Whatever it is, from starting the business to taking the trip, signing up for the class, applying for the job, going on the date, or saying yes to the opportunity, you are allowed to do it imperfectly. You can carry your sadness, your fear, your doubt. You donโ€™t need permission to begin.

Just begin.
The healing might be waiting on the other side.

xoxo
-S

๐Ÿฅ’ Dill Pickle Lemonade, or, The Homemade Electrolyte Drink That Saved My Summer

Over the weekend at Firehouse Fatales, my friend was slinging her signature dilly lemonade from her state fair-style stand. I tried it on Saturday, and it was everything I didnโ€™t know I needed. Cold, salty, briny, a little sour, and absolutely perfect after standing around in full glam in the middle of 100-degree heat.

It hit the spot. But it also got me thinking. That drink felt so good after hours of sweating and running around. I knew I could take the idea and turn it into something more functional. Something that supported my body as much as it satisfied my taste buds.

So I went home and created a version that works as a homemade electrolyte drink. And Iโ€™ve been drinking it every day since.


๐Ÿ’ฆ Homemade Electrolyte Drink with Pickle Juice and Lemon

Letโ€™s be clear. My friendโ€™s version was simple. Just lemonade and pickle brine. Just that salty, sour bite.

What I made keeps the same flavor foundation but boosts it with ingredients that actually help replace electrolytes and support hydration, especially after long, hot days. This has become my go-to keto-friendly hydration fix.

  • Dill pickle brine provides natural sodium, which is essential when youโ€™re sweating
  • Fresh lemon juice gives you potassium and vitamin C
  • Cream of tartar adds a major boost of potassium and is a little-known electrolyte hero
  • Baking soda offers a small dose of sodium bicarbonate to help your body recover
  • Stevia keeps it sweet without sugar, carbs, or crashes

This version is perfect for anyone following a low carb lifestyle who needs natural electrolyte replacement without the processed powders or sugar-loaded drinks.


๐Ÿงƒ Dill Pickle Lemonade Recipe for Low Carb Summer Hydration

After Firehouse Fatales, this became my daily drink. Itโ€™s briny, bright, and refreshing in a way that makes your whole body feel better. If youโ€™ve been sweating, dragging, or just plain wiped out, this is what I recommend.

Dill Pickle Electrolyte Lemonade

  • 1 cup fresh lemon juice
  • ยฝ cup dill pickle brine
  • ยฝ teaspoon cream of tartar
  • โ…› teaspoon baking soda
  • 1 to 2 cups cold water, depending on your salt preference
  • Stevia to taste
  • Ice to serve

Stir it well and pour it over ice. If you want to dress it up, garnish with a dill sprig or a pickle spear. Or just drink it straight and get on with your day.


โšก๏ธ Who Should Be Drinking This Low Carb Summer Electrolyte Fix

This isnโ€™t just for fun. This is for function. If any of these sound like you, make this your new daily drink.

  • Youโ€™ve been in the sun and feel drained
  • Youโ€™re following keto or low carb and need more than plain water
  • You love pickles and donโ€™t mind a bold flavor
  • You want something natural that actually works
  • Youโ€™re overpaying for electrolyte powders that taste like chalk

This is pickle juice for hydration with purpose. Itโ€™s weird-girl wellness with actual benefits. I made it because I needed it, and Iโ€™m sharing it because I know Iโ€™m not the only one trying to keep it together in the heat.ng. If youโ€™ve been sweating it out or just feel worn down, this might be exactly what you need.

xoxo
-S

๐Ÿ‘  The Day After Heels

When Your Toes Are Still Mad and the Pavement Was 100 Degrees

I just wrapped my very first pageant as a host, the inaugural Firehouse Fatales, and let me tell you, it was a flaming success in more ways than one. The vibe? Immaculate. The contestants? Absolute knockouts. The temperature? Oh, just a casual 100 degrees in late June in Wyoming.

We were out in the blazing sun all day, surrounded by vintage cars, concrete, and the kind of dry heat that sucks the hydration straight out of your skin. I wore heels basically all day, because of course I did, and I walked several blocks back and forth between venues, handled emcee duties, and made sure everyone had what they needed. I also smiled through it all like my toes werenโ€™t actively trying to escape my body.

By the time I got home, I was sweaty, crusty (literally, I had a salt layer on my face), dehydrated despite gallons of water, and my toesโ€ฆ were numb. Not just a little. Weโ€™re talking weird tingles under my big toenails well into the next day.


So what was going on?

Turns out it was a perfect storm:

  • Hours of walking in heels on hard concrete
  • Scorching heat drawing every drop of moisture out of my body
  • Swelling that I couldnโ€™t see but absolutely felt. I couldnโ€™t even fit into a pair of shoes the next day that normally slide right on
  • Electrolyte imbalance despite drinking water and even a Gatorade
  • A good olโ€™ dose of nerve compression in my feet
  • Not to mention less that two hours of sleep the night before

I had forgotten how much your body can shout at you after the adrenaline of a big event wears off. And this time, it was shouting in Morse code through my toenails.


If this ever happens to you, hereโ€™s what to do:

Post-Heel Foot Recovery Checklist:

โ˜ Rehydrate, for real
Water isnโ€™t enough if youโ€™ve sweated out your minerals. Add in a real electrolyte (LMNT, Liquid IV, or a mix of salt, lemon, and a pinch of potassium powder or cream of tartar).
(Up next I’ll immediately post my favorite summertime electrolyte drink!)

โ˜ Take your magnesium
This helps with nerve repair, muscle cramps, and those middle-of-the-night Charlie horses I definitely had.

โ˜ Elevate your feet
Prop your legs up above your heart for 30 to 60 minutes and let gravity help out your circulation.

โ˜ Soak those feet
Warm Epsom salt soaks are your friend. Add a little peppermint oil if you’re feeling fancy.

โ˜ Gently massage and stretch
Use your hands or roll a ball under your arch. Flex your toes, roll your ankles, and gently scrub around the nail beds with a soft toothbrush to stimulate sensation.

โ˜ Wear forgiving shoes
Donโ€™t shove your foot back into anything that compresses your toes. Let them breathe and decompress.

โ˜ Rest and watch
Numbness that improves over 24 to 48 hours is normal. But if it worsens, spreads, or sticks around too long, talk to a provider.


Iโ€™m sharing this not just because itโ€™s helpful, but because I want you to know that even when youโ€™re standing tall (in heels, in public, in a 100ยฐ inferno), the crash afterward is real. You can be proud of what you pulled off and take the time to recover properly.

Iโ€™m giving my feet the night off and tomorrow Iโ€™ll be back in my flats, planning the next big thing. Maybe a little wiser. Maybe a little more hydrated. Definitely with happier toes.

xoxo
-S

P.S. – This yearโ€™s Firehouse Fatales event was everything I hoped it would be. We had a full lineup of stunning contestants, a fantastic crowd, and a solid vintage car show to set the scene. From the Pin-up Pitstop to the judgesโ€™ scorecards, every little detail came together. My family helped, our sponsors showed up in a big way, and the community really showed us love. It was hot, it was a little chaotic behind the scenes, but it was beautiful. Iโ€™m so proud of what we pulled off and already excited for what next year might bring. Iโ€™ll be sharing a full recap post soon with more photos, the story behind the event, and how you can get involved next year, so keep your eyes peeled.

The Road That Still Breaks My Heart

Thereโ€™s a road I used to turn down that felt like stepping through a portal, like the air shifted as I crossed the threshold into something softer, safer, almost sacred. I lived at the end of that road for five years, and even now, years later, Iโ€™m still grieving the loss of it like I lost a person. Because maybe I did.

I lost the version of myself I became in that house.

That place wasnโ€™t just where I lived. It was where I finally exhaled. Where I found rhythm and comfort and hope again. The walls werenโ€™t just shelter. They were sanctuary. And when we left, it wasnโ€™t just a move. It was a tearing. A dislocation. A grief Iโ€™ve never quite been able to outrun.

Itโ€™s been almost five years since we left, which is almost the same amount of time we lived there. Somehow, that symmetry makes the ache sharper. Like Iโ€™m standing on either side of a mirror, looking at a version of myself I canโ€™t reach anymore.

I still cry when I think about it.
I still tear up when I get too close.
I still find myself dreaming about it, vivid, aching dreams where weโ€™re allowed to go back. Where weโ€™re living there again, like nothing ever changed. And I wake up heartbroken all over again.

Some people think of grief as something reserved for death, but I know better. Iโ€™ve learned that thereโ€™s such a thing as living grief, the kind that haunts you quietly, the kind that follows you into your sleep, the kind that doesnโ€™t have a funeral but still deserves to be mourned.

I donโ€™t know how to stop wanting it back.
And maybe I donโ€™t need to. Maybe that place will always be a soul marker, a lighthouse I canโ€™t reach but still look for on dark nights.

Sometimes, I wonder if peace like that ever comes back.
Not in the same form, but in pieces. In fragments.
In new light through new windows. In quiet mornings where my heart doesnโ€™t feel so bruised.

But for now, I carry it.
I carry her, the woman I was in that house.
The woman who finally felt like she had made it home.
And every time the sky turns that color, the one that feels like a Zach Bryan song, I let myself miss it.

Because what we had there, that was home.


Thereโ€™s a reel on my Instagram that goes with this post. I put it together with a song that gets me every time. You can watch it here.


To those of you that follow me everywhere – thank you for putting up with this for a few days in a row. I don’t know that I’m through it yet, but I do know there is catharsis in posting.

xoxo
-S

Beneath the Surface

The Utah Pond Discovery and the Families Still Waiting

Thereโ€™s a stillness to certain places that makes them feel like theyโ€™re holding their breath.

In West Valley City, Utah, just beyond a nondescript stretch of road framed by office buildings and golf course green, thereโ€™s a pond that looks like it belongs to no one. People pass by it every day: commuters, delivery trucks, the casual jogger. It blends into the background of suburbia. You wouldnโ€™t look twice.

But on March 25, 2025, a fisherman stopped there, maybe looking for a little quiet. What he found instead was a human skull. And then bones. Scattered. Settled. Like theyโ€™d been waiting there all along.

That discovery shifted everything. Not just for investigators, but for the families of Utahโ€™s missing. For the mothers and sisters whoโ€™ve spent years staring down silence, bracing for the worst kind of answer.

Emily Nardacci was one of the first to hear. When your sister is missing, you develop a radar for every headline, every police update, every whisper of an unidentified body. Anne Elliott disappeared from Salt Lake City nearly five years ago. She was 37 years old. The last time anyone saw her was near 2100 South and 500 East, walking away from the life she was trying so hard to fix.

The pond now swarming with law enforcement and search crews is just six miles from where Anne vanished.

Emily has learned to manage her expectations. Sheโ€™s practiced at it. But the weight of this possibility presses in from both sides. Thereโ€™s dread and thereโ€™s longing. She doesnโ€™t want this to be Anne. And at the same time, sheโ€™s desperate for something to break the silence.

Anne wasnโ€™t just another name on a flyer. She was born and raised in Douglas, Wyoming. She was fiercely intelligent and tenderhearted. She struggled, like many do, with addiction and trauma. She was also a mother. A sister. A friend. She mattered. And when she disappeared on May 5, 2020, she didnโ€™t take her keys or her phone. She simply vanished.

The search turned up nothing. No security footage. No credit card activity. No confirmed sightings. Her family has spent years trying to keep her name alive. Theyโ€™ve spoken to the media, pleaded with the public, lit candles, and cried through birthdays and holidays.

Now, this discovery is too close to ignore.

And Emily isnโ€™t the only one holding her breath.

Marilyn Stevenson has lived this nightmare since 2017. Her son, Justin Hooiman, disappeared from Salt Lake City without a trace. He was 31. Funny, loyal, and quick with a smile that could cut through the worst day. He had a past too. Run-ins with the law. Addiction. Ongoing struggles. But he called his mom regularly. He checked in. He always came home.

Until he didnโ€™t.

Marilyn has never stopped looking. She keeps boxes of flyers in her car and photos in her purse. She checks unidentified remains databases the way others check the weather. The discovery in the pond brought the grief back to the surface.

Every time a body is found, someone receives an answer. At the same time, someone else receives an ending.

Just one day after the remains were found in West Valley City, another discovery was made. This time, it was a black trash bag dumped along a rural road near Brigham City, about 60 miles north. Inside was a woman. Still unidentified. Reddish-brown hair. A small heart tattoo on her left bicep.

The bag had been there long enough to blend into the brush. Long enough to be overlooked, until someone finally noticed.

Investigators have not said whether the two cases are connected. But for families of the missing, the timing is impossible to ignore. Two women. Two days. Two sets of remains. Utah holds more than its share of missing persons. Cold cases rarely stay cold forever.

Eventually, the ground returns what it has been holding.

The Utah Office of the Medical Examiner is working to identify the remains. DNA testing is in progress. But results take time. Weeks, sometimes months. And for the people waiting on the other end of that call, time moves slowly and sharply.

Emily doesnโ€™t know what outcome she wants. Neither does Marilyn. Closure is a myth they stopped believing in a long time ago. Nothing makes it whole again. There is only knowing or not knowing. Most days, they live somewhere in between.

One of the hardest parts is how easily these stories are overlooked. Anne Elliott wasnโ€™t a stranger from a headline. She was from Wyoming. From the same kind of place that raises cattle and kids and women who will burn the world down for their families. Justin Hooiman wasnโ€™t a statistic. He had people who loved him. People who still do. People who miss him every day.

And the woman in the trash bag? She belonged to someone too. Maybe someone who has been searching for her. Maybe someone who still doesnโ€™t know sheโ€™s gone.

This isnโ€™t just another news story. Itโ€™s a collection of unfinished lives. There are names we donโ€™t know yet. There are people who went missing, and others who never stopped waiting.

The names of the people in the pond and in the bag are still unknown. But they mattered. They were loved. And someone out there remembers them. Someone knows what happened.

Now we wait. With the mothers. With the sisters. With the silence.

These are not just remains. They are people. They are stories. And they deserve to be brought home.

xoxo
-S

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